Exactly one year ago today, Pat and I said our goodbyes to friends and family back home and began our venture to Texas where Pat would begin his Air Force Career. At the time, it was the hardest mountain I had ever climbed. I couldn’t imagine how in the world I was going to cope because I didn’t feel prepared for such a drastic change. Yet, here I am today. I survived and have grown in areas that I would have resisted had I never been drawn from the comfort and safety of my home and family. There’s something empowering about withstanding something you once thought you couldn’t possibly endure, knowing that God is always there to strengthen you when the road looks rough and treacherous, knowing that He has blessed you with a spirit of stubborn perseverance and the right people to make the journey if not easier, at least better.
Now may the God of peace who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, equip you with everything good that you may do his will, working in us that which is pleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.”
I think a big part of growing is learning to not run away from a challenge. I remember how much fear and heartache I experienced in the days and weeks leading up to our “goodbye,” and I realize now that it was probably made worse because I was resisting, rather than embracing the changes ahead of me. Looking to the future, I see even bigger, more challenging obstacles that are ahead; Pat deploying next year, living and managing our household alone, going back to school, having children someday, and many other things. I wonder, “How am I supposed to manage that?” and God gently reminds me that He has already brought me through many things I thought would be too hard, things I thought I couldn’t handle. It’s a process, but I’m learning to accept that being stretched thin isn’t all bad – I like that God is shaping me to be a strong, independent woman with skills, knowledge, and experiences I never could have dreamed up for myself.
You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”